Ok, just to spout out an opinion and my understanding of UMBRELLAS.

There often and lately seems to be a question of who is trans? Who is more trans? Who suffers more? Who has it harder? Who is an ally and who is part of the nation of trans people?

We better be a nation because it seems like we don’t quite belong any place else and are not totally wanted any where either. But the good thing is that seems to be what we all have in common. We all feel apart , somehow some always and at times lost ( or did or were ).

So instead of worrying who belongs here or who is more trans, or less trans, really trans or just kinda, just trendy or confused, let’s just try to not make other people e that day they are like us or might understand is feel bad. Let’s say, hey they are representing my cause too.

For that I (re-) Present to you the Trans Umbrella

Crossdressers are trans in that they fall under the teams umbrella. They cross the gender binary much like a Drag Queen on the other side of the ☂️.
Are crossdressers trans women or trans men , no.
People crossdress for a variety of reasons from the finding of comfort, fetish, reaction to trauma, escapism, emotional attachment, many, many reasons.

Another graphic used often is this one –

Individuals that do drag are the same they do so for a multitude of reasons from fun to profit, to political statement. Drag Queens and Kings and Bio like crossdressers will often have a nearly or totally different identity or persona to varying degrees. All of them are under the trans umbrella. Therefore they are Trans with the big T let’s say.
Just like those individuals that identify as Non Binary, GenderQueer, Genderfluid, Gender non confirming and many others that are varying and vast. All of them however at some point step beyond their assigned gender role and cross the barrier whether it be social/biological or a combination of both, depending on your stance.
But all of them fall under that same umbrella.



So, today after an awesome meeting with a group I will be working with for a time I went to the store.
At said store there was a huge line but we were all patient, i even let a guy cut in front of me because his hands were full (he said thanks and all that, very nice).
Meanwhile ahead of us was some Juggalo (spelling sorry, kind of an ancient term) wannabe started mouthing off and immediately called the cashier “Habib” and just started demanding his money back and ended by calling the cashier ( I am thinking he was Sikh, but maybe simply Pakistani, but who knows I am ignorant woefully) a….. well as immature as it sounds “N word” ( a word is just a word yeah, but I refused to say that word since I was 10). But again it is just a word.
Well this beautiful tall young man with dreads says “what did you say?” and follows him out.
I alas became involved, I told the non-hideous I agreed with and that it was out of line what had been said.
Shortly after that was when the punches from these two large men began flowing. The bigot ran and apologized as they so often do alone in the face of righteous fury.
However I have to say that evading a punch from the “noble one” was part of my exit as well as several threats.
I simply wanted it to stop, I mean he had already “clocked ” him twice.
My goal,… nobody goes to jail.
If we could just communicate or learn that this is a priority.


Hela, Thor Ragnarok HalaSo in finding out that I have a blood-clot that is serious but treatable, and not in a serious or an untreatable area I am very frustrated with the medical communities response to it. The response being  pretty much being step back, hands off, call us when it is resolved, we don’t responsibility.

This is very frustrating the personal, emotional, and financial sacrifice and submission i have put into this relationship to achieve my goal.

What to I do?

I have given literally everything, me, my life, my family, my home, my career, family, friends, home, career, finances, past, fitness, for this. I cannot stop at this point.

No estrogen he says.

Compensations and such

I have a sister that my former self veritably raised. She cannot remember me baby sitting her when I was 8 or 9 dressed in girl clothes and acting like a girl (she was 4 or 5). This went on for 2 to 3 years.
All my life I felt that I always wavered towards the feminine and a few friends and such commented over the years. I was feminine in a lot of what I thought were obvious ways ballet, played a girl often, disdained many masculine activities, and the list goes on right, etc…?
The thing is with a few exceptions and teasing here and there few people noticed. Of course I covered it a lot sometimes I think deliberately.
Because I also did some very extreme I guess male-ish things to compensate and maybe just satiate that male part of that I was forced to build.Who knows?
But because of that I think some people including that sister saw me very much in the latter activities and because of that it is hard for them to take that image of me apart.
Which is not really necessary from my point of view,because most of that was really me. Gender is silly like that.
At any rate that sister and I have still not spoken from transition, which breaks my heart.
But we go on.

Does Bernie Sanders have “jumper cables”?

I had to do something to get my blog momentum going again so this was spewed out. A reflection over an article on this a tired but true “Dark Horse contender” that just might be able start up my enthusiasm again.

Bernie Sanders on Gun Rights

I am starting to really appreciate and develop an appreciation for Bernie Sanders. As a firm believer in the 2nd Amendment I am at times in an odd position with where most would think I fit fit politically.
Sanders seems to me to show a more rational approach to many issues that I appreciate. He shows disdain at times for both parties but in a form of bitter irony he understands of course that he has no chance without one.
My friends from the History Frat I was part of in college, Phi Alpha Theta(?) once looked at me in total horror and said you “Omg you have searched so far Right that you have come out Radical Left!”

Of the Republican possibles Rand Paul believe it or not has some really opposing rhetoric to my own positions but also shows character and some overall direction that seems to be what I feel.

As for Hillary? Well besides the Clinton or Bush dynasty thing which frankly drives me up a damn wall. I mean really all the diversity and freedom and progress that we are pushing for in this nation in either party or anywhere, and this is the best we can muster? The same two families? Not to mention the scores of complaints and admiration, commentary or whatever about either family and then we are considering having them back. It’s embarrassing, really.

Besides all of that. Hillary would be acceptable, she is indeed and intelligent and strong person. I believe she has some very good plans and she has been part of some great things and has pretty generally kept her record clean with some notable but notorious exceptions.

But she doesn’t seem to really be one of us and she has pretty sketchy views on some minor issues that i do not agree with. So I am torn and she definitely does not get the free vote that many are pushing for her as a woman or reformist.
Then there is the theme that none of the candidates are addressing the real major issues of social reform and inequality which are obviously boiling about us and have to be addressed. Although I will say that Bernie mentioned it the other day.

But talk is cheap, time to wait and see I guess. But to be honest I am getting really tired of waiting.

Caitlyn Diana

Trans attention, Union is important

OK, starting this whole Blog thing has been intimidating so this is my low effort start directly from my facebook. Controversial a little among the trans community. Go to my page if you want to see the commentary that follows. i value the opinion of my friends that commented and do not feel it is my right to share their opinion here at this point.


This is all true. But even though I am not a Silverman fan I do not believe this is was what she intended and our criticism although valid really detracts from her point about the women’s issue she is addressing. Ideally she would have added that in the end though being transgender would not help either and only make things worse. But the ad was not perfect or all inclusive. Overall a good deed and meant to address a need. Thanks to Sarah overall.